The proverbial you-know-what

The proverbial you-know-what

Tuesday, April 26, 2011

Issues and illnesses


I have had the flu, now a kidney infection, and now it's a tossup to see if I avoid strep too. Why is this shit happening to me? Because of heavy family and personal stress. And worries about job and SSI. The unfriendly letters I get from the DOL don't help either.Telling me not to bother w/filing SSI if I'm to work. Been looking AND working these one day here, one day there temp jobs. And a bro who takes his job as a stud-cop too seriously.
I still think that somehow, some way I'll make it. This blog is my novel "Chasing frieght trains" Some of it very graphic in places.
I have done some crazy damn things in my life. Some...well I still can't resist. Interesting huh? Stay I am feeling like total shit right now. Job inquiries must go on..when I'm a bit better. Gotta call to see if there's work tomorrow at the keebler factory. A  sweatshop, but it's money.
My bestie who has not contacted me lately has left me wondering if I will ever hear from her again. Hmm.
Could life get any weirder? Probably.
I still have some hope that life will improve.
Till next time...
 Bruno Mars is a HOTTIE I think this song applies to friendship as well as romance.

Sunday, April 17, 2011

Who am I? I really would like to know...

A new chapter of my life has opened before me, and what's seemingly difficult to me now might be child's play to another. Living in my brother's house...It's showtime folks. I must have more work soon. No alternative... I WILL find work. THIS WEEK... I must! For my own sake.
 Till next time......

Friday, April 15, 2011

Tornado Season...Tuck and Roll

This has been the most stressful month of my life. The past 4 wks have been difficult. I got a temp job and lost it because I went home w/an earache one day.The same week I was packing to move. Guess I should have communicated that to my boss. I have been moodier than the usual. A couple of my friends probably wondered if was wacked. I moved in with my whole family, well almost whole family of origin. Minus my father, who's anal narcisstic attitude is now present in my brother.I get more work, and they have sent me home 2 days in a row. I removed my salon nails and got sore fingers for the job. Well they still are placing me so I guess I'll have to be patient. My stomach is in knots, I blew my sobriety several times and I fear a couple of my friends don't wanna know me anymore.
 I am not even supposed to be here. I'm the family member that was snuck in, according to my brother. That in itself, being told to me made me feel like a 2nd class human. But my mother stuck up for me a couple of times, which was a surprise. She's constantly nervous as well. More deets are not necessary, you, the reader get the picture I believe. Still, I guess more work will arrive, because I have been feverishly seeking employment. Turbulent like spring tornados have been my life lately, and I just had to vent.
Till next time...